Noah LeClair (![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png)
localdeliveryboy) wrote2021-10-12 09:47 pm
localdeliveryboy) wrote2021-10-12 09:47 pm
Personality
Noah is brave, selfless, and compassionate always putting the concerns of others before his own - particularly the needs of children, especially those in the orphanage. More often than not, he's always busy with work in some form or another either running deliveries, looking for clients, or diving into the Deep, all for the sake of earning more and more each day. He forced himself to grow up quite quickly out of a sense of debt and greatitude towards sister Antoinette who took care of him and so many other children, but also he used it as a way to save himself from thinking about his sister, Alexandra, who had left him.
The feelings of confusion and hurt he felt the night his sister left him still lives in his heart and is a constant source of pain and sorrow, in part because of the questions that remained unanswered even as he grew older and wiser, but he's learned to not let these thoughts weigh him down. Instead, he uses this ever present greif to help those like him - mainly the childred that come into his care - who also struggle with those feelings of abandonment and played the role of big brother to them just as Ben had for him.
Moments of vulnerability still crop up every now and then but with the way Noah immerses himself in his work, the thoughts are pushed back just as quickly as they surface. His work is not just a convenient distraction, Noah sincerely enjoys being of service to others about just as much as he likes getting paid for it. A part of him feels fulfilled knowing that he did something to make someone's life easier or even just a bit happier, or even just knowing he protected someone's life or livlihood. This was further developed when he met the Wild Vanguards Divers whom he idolized for their bravery, thrist for adventure, and devotion to the service of others, particularly Isaiah.
Their actions birthed in him a powerful drive to succeed which lead to his dynamic growth, however as time went on, he started to want more. He wanted fame and wealth, enough to leave the slums with everyone in the orphanage in tow. He started to form a dream, one that he felt was within his reach. Growing up as an orphan in the slums meant living hand-to-mouth, then with his time as a Diver and as a courier he saw glimpses of how the other half lived and wanted that for himself.
Admitedly this made Noah very materialistic. He, like the other orphans, grew up with very little and shared almost everything so part of him longs to have something he can call his own - something grand that he worked for and earned by his own blood, sweat, and tears. He wants a home built by his own hands and a family to share the rest of his life with. A simple and warm dream that he works for every single day and one day hopes to share it with the orphanage.
His materialism does extend into more troublesome habits, mainly how he can come off as cheap and does whatever he can to save every single coin he earns through bargaining, trading, or simply just scrutinizing if he truly needs something. The only benefit that was born of this was that he's made himself into a handy man and learned to fox all manners of things, from plumbing to carpentry which he often uses at the orphanage. He does, however, know when to spend his hard earned money like on medicines or books for the kids, or just getting everyone a gift or two if he has a bit extra.
There is also a much darker side to Noah, one that no one seemed to expect. Despite his overwhelming sense of empathy he can also be quite cold and merciless. From his youth, he's seen and felt the disparity between classes - not simply just the rich against the poor, but even among the less fortunate like him there was a hierchy established by strength which he sorely lacked as a child. Often was he and the other children the subject of harassment from gang members who thought themselves their betters simply because they were "strong". Noah resented this and despite the guidance of sister Antoinette and Ben, he carried this hatered deep in his heart.
This gave Noah his courage to oppose his aggressors but also made him prone to lashing out without so much as a thought for the consequences or if he could even match them. This motivation was tempered and tamed by his time with the Vanguards, who molded him into the Diver to match even the most skilled of their profession, but they did not dispel this anger and spite. Whatsmore, the fame and praise he recieved exacerbated this quality and turned it into arrogance and a false belief that he had become superior. These two became the fragile foundation of Noah's belief which came tumbling down, casting him deeper into his long held spite.
With the violent demise of the Vanguards, and a face to pin the blame, Noah's hatered quickly consumed him with the aid of sorrow and survivors guilt to cloud his judgement. Not to mention a stroke of good luck. The quiet apathy he held for those who looked down on him turned him into a cold blooded killer, one that did not feel anger when he killed his quarry - only satisfaction and comfort knowing he had removed them from the living. He did anything to reach his goal, even going so far as to barter with criminals, and even after all the chaos he felt no remorse for the lives he took. Nothing for their families or friends, he didn't even care for the lives he had saved from the Halberd's crimes, he was simply glad that they were gone.
Noah did not stay as that monster thanks to his family and friends, but it was because of Madeliene that he was able to put that monster down. The closure he received from being able to pay his respects and apologies to Isaiah was more than enough to set Noah straight. He understood that he was strong, but dangerous - more than he ever thought - and he has to be wise about that strength or he would go back to being something worse than what he hates the most. A being who doesn't care for those beneth him.
This lesson serves to humble and strengthen Noah as he strives for his dream, walking the straight and narrow while lifting up the lives of his ever growing family. He still harbors that spite for those who look down on him and on the less fortunate, but he knows better than to let it wildly consume him. Many were hurt by his deeds, and he knows there is nothing he can do to absolve him of that sin, but he was given another chance and he will not squander it by groveling for forgiveness or being weighed down by sorrow. He will live his life by being of service while trying to raise others to greater heights.
The feelings of confusion and hurt he felt the night his sister left him still lives in his heart and is a constant source of pain and sorrow, in part because of the questions that remained unanswered even as he grew older and wiser, but he's learned to not let these thoughts weigh him down. Instead, he uses this ever present greif to help those like him - mainly the childred that come into his care - who also struggle with those feelings of abandonment and played the role of big brother to them just as Ben had for him.
Moments of vulnerability still crop up every now and then but with the way Noah immerses himself in his work, the thoughts are pushed back just as quickly as they surface. His work is not just a convenient distraction, Noah sincerely enjoys being of service to others about just as much as he likes getting paid for it. A part of him feels fulfilled knowing that he did something to make someone's life easier or even just a bit happier, or even just knowing he protected someone's life or livlihood. This was further developed when he met the Wild Vanguards Divers whom he idolized for their bravery, thrist for adventure, and devotion to the service of others, particularly Isaiah.
Their actions birthed in him a powerful drive to succeed which lead to his dynamic growth, however as time went on, he started to want more. He wanted fame and wealth, enough to leave the slums with everyone in the orphanage in tow. He started to form a dream, one that he felt was within his reach. Growing up as an orphan in the slums meant living hand-to-mouth, then with his time as a Diver and as a courier he saw glimpses of how the other half lived and wanted that for himself.
Admitedly this made Noah very materialistic. He, like the other orphans, grew up with very little and shared almost everything so part of him longs to have something he can call his own - something grand that he worked for and earned by his own blood, sweat, and tears. He wants a home built by his own hands and a family to share the rest of his life with. A simple and warm dream that he works for every single day and one day hopes to share it with the orphanage.
His materialism does extend into more troublesome habits, mainly how he can come off as cheap and does whatever he can to save every single coin he earns through bargaining, trading, or simply just scrutinizing if he truly needs something. The only benefit that was born of this was that he's made himself into a handy man and learned to fox all manners of things, from plumbing to carpentry which he often uses at the orphanage. He does, however, know when to spend his hard earned money like on medicines or books for the kids, or just getting everyone a gift or two if he has a bit extra.
There is also a much darker side to Noah, one that no one seemed to expect. Despite his overwhelming sense of empathy he can also be quite cold and merciless. From his youth, he's seen and felt the disparity between classes - not simply just the rich against the poor, but even among the less fortunate like him there was a hierchy established by strength which he sorely lacked as a child. Often was he and the other children the subject of harassment from gang members who thought themselves their betters simply because they were "strong". Noah resented this and despite the guidance of sister Antoinette and Ben, he carried this hatered deep in his heart.
This gave Noah his courage to oppose his aggressors but also made him prone to lashing out without so much as a thought for the consequences or if he could even match them. This motivation was tempered and tamed by his time with the Vanguards, who molded him into the Diver to match even the most skilled of their profession, but they did not dispel this anger and spite. Whatsmore, the fame and praise he recieved exacerbated this quality and turned it into arrogance and a false belief that he had become superior. These two became the fragile foundation of Noah's belief which came tumbling down, casting him deeper into his long held spite.
With the violent demise of the Vanguards, and a face to pin the blame, Noah's hatered quickly consumed him with the aid of sorrow and survivors guilt to cloud his judgement. Not to mention a stroke of good luck. The quiet apathy he held for those who looked down on him turned him into a cold blooded killer, one that did not feel anger when he killed his quarry - only satisfaction and comfort knowing he had removed them from the living. He did anything to reach his goal, even going so far as to barter with criminals, and even after all the chaos he felt no remorse for the lives he took. Nothing for their families or friends, he didn't even care for the lives he had saved from the Halberd's crimes, he was simply glad that they were gone.
Noah did not stay as that monster thanks to his family and friends, but it was because of Madeliene that he was able to put that monster down. The closure he received from being able to pay his respects and apologies to Isaiah was more than enough to set Noah straight. He understood that he was strong, but dangerous - more than he ever thought - and he has to be wise about that strength or he would go back to being something worse than what he hates the most. A being who doesn't care for those beneth him.
This lesson serves to humble and strengthen Noah as he strives for his dream, walking the straight and narrow while lifting up the lives of his ever growing family. He still harbors that spite for those who look down on him and on the less fortunate, but he knows better than to let it wildly consume him. Many were hurt by his deeds, and he knows there is nothing he can do to absolve him of that sin, but he was given another chance and he will not squander it by groveling for forgiveness or being weighed down by sorrow. He will live his life by being of service while trying to raise others to greater heights.